its been a while

So it has been a few months since I visited my blog. Its shameful I know, but so many things have been happening that the thought of trying to put just a few of them in words seemed overwhelming.
Two amazing things - I graduate from college. Ohhh, yes I have my bachelor's degree. I finally earned that single line on my resume, that took me a few years and some gray hairs. I am still looking, two months later, after hitting up every contact I still have no leads for a job.
Number two- I got married last weekend to the love of my life. I am now a wife, which changes nothing. Im still with the person I have been with for the last three years, I still love him the same amount and I am equally committed. One thing has changed- I can now call him my husband, and believe me I dothat every chance I get.
I have been interning for Runway Magazine LA, which has been a great dissapointment but at least I learned one thing- how to control the smoke coming out of my ears...

ah, the dreams..

As I sit here, at a job that completely doesn't relate to my field, I cant help but to wonder if I'm expecting too much from life. Sure, one can dream big, but is it unrealistic to wish for instant gratification? in my perfect world I would be interning at a legendary fashion publication, getting ready for my graduation in May followed then by, naturally- a full time position. With all of this of course, would come a survivable income and a nice home for my husband and I. Is that too much to ask? apparently, yes. Just like high waisted pants, my dreams remain in 2008 and I am left with floral prints which along with my piles of bills make me dizzy and confused...

The Time Has Come

So it only took me a year to fill this empty page with letters. I have been planning to start writing. Just writing. I didn't have anything in mind, but I knew there was something inside me just waiting to come out. Its as if my extreme talent for talking for never ending hours is not enough, I felt like there was something else knocking at my fingers.Despite my hard earned C in my journalism class, I was hungry for more. Whether its to prove myself or just unload on to an empty page. Since I am graduating with a Bachelors of Science in fashion design in May, it is only natural for me to speak of the crazy yet addicting world of style. I have to admit I don't know everything about fashion. Sure I read enormous amounts of fashion magazines and blogs. They feed my soul and lift my spirits and their differences and unique tastes keep me coming back for more like the wineries of Napa Valley. But they give me so many point of views that its hard for me to know whats in style anymore. Just taking a look at "worst dressed" and "fashion police" features in magazines I end up seeing the same things in both categories. One day Katie Holmes is a fashion disaster the next she is setting the trend-- surprisingly in the same outfit. This befuddles me and I'm left to decide whether I- a girl raised in a tiny corner of Europe, think its the new season's IT trend. I do like different and unique things, after all by dressing we are showing our personalities and perhaps even a bit of our soul, sometimes hoping our outfit is going to make us seem like something we want to be, and other times wishing it will help us hide from our own reality...